It's not supposed to be this way.
It’s just not
Today is a day you are to be celebrated. You should be celebrated. But there doesn’t seem to be anyone to celebrate you.
I want you to know that I see you.
I see you doing this alone.
No help. No recognition. No break.
I see you getting up at all hours of the night nursing that baby alone.
I see you juggling 2 or 3 jobs to provide.
I see you wanting to share stories about the kids after they are asleep.
I see you up at dawn studying so you can have the rest of the day to work and mother those babies.
I see you on your third cup of coffee that hasn’t yet touched your exhaustion.
I see your dry shampooed messy bun.
I see you trying to forgive yourself for things that aren't your fault.
I see those beautiful children who know they are loved every second of every day.
I see you being the disciplinarian & then turning right around to be the comforter the next moment.
I see your never ending to do list.
I see you on mornings you were up all night working, wishing you could press the snooze button. But you can’t snooze little giggles.
I see you questioning yourself. Your every decision and every move. Is this enough? Am I enough?
I see you alone at the end of the night. The deafening silence bringing you both relief & loneliness all at once.
I see you pulling from a strength reservoir that you didn’t even know you had.
I see your tears and your hoping.
I see your survival and your healing.
I see you protecting and your sacrifice.
Because today really can be one of the hardest days for us. Today should be a day you are recognized and seen but you feel more invisible than ever. You feel forgotten.
Someone pulled me aside a few years ago and affirmed me. They told me they saw me today.
God saw me today. Today of all days.
So I wanted to tell you
You’re doing an amazing job in raising those littles. Thank you for showing up every day. I respect you for having the courage to do it all alone. You are beating the odds. Those babies will thrive because of the work you’re putting in.
God sees you. And I see you.