June 2, 2017

Don't tame him


hear me roar

Anyone ever met my boy?

Goodness gracious that child is stubborn.

He gets it from me though so who am I to complain?

He's strong-willed and spirited. He's independent but he's also still only two so he can't do everything by himself or his own way.


But not in his mind. In Sawyer's mind, he is superman and can do it all.

He's a heaven-sent blessing and I love him to pieces.

Even days like today, actually especially days like today. 

Because today I see my son as an individual who wants to be heard and seen. I see him. But on days like today, I see him more.

Today was hard. Today defeated me as a mother and I'm running on empty. Actually, I've been pretty empty for a while and I'm running on fumes.

I was tired, he was tired. I mean who isn't tired? I have to keep reminding myself (over and over and over) again that his strong spirit doesn't need to be tamed. It needs to be embraced, he needs patience and love, and a whole LOT of grace.

My boy needs a strong hand to guide him BUT also a gentle hand to hold along the way in those small and few moments he decides he needs his mommy. And that may mean I have to go about parenting a different way. But I'm up for the challenge because my strong, stubborn spirited little boy is going to be a leader, and he's going to have a strong voice and he's going to change the world. I know it, so I'm going to do the very best I can to let him be little and help grow him into the man God wants him to be.

So often children are punished for being human. Children aren't allowed to have grumpy moods, bad attitudes, disrespectful tones, or bad days. Yet we as adults have them all the time. None of us are perfect and I think we need to stop holding children to a higher standard of perfection that we as adults can not attain ourselves.